“What are you doing? Get up. Get up, please,” I pleaded.
He remained on his knee.
I broke his intense gaze to scan the busy Daily Grind. To my surprise, none of the customers or the baristas even paid any attention to us.
That made me feel quite better. To be honest, I didn’t know what that said about me. Well, actually I did…
Ever since my childhood, I’ve hated attention. From my family. From my friends. From acquaintances. From strangers.
Well, you got the point…
Beginning to feel comfortable that we didn’t have an audience, I took a deep breath and glanced into his handsome aqua eyes. “Yes, I’ll marry you, AJ.”
Smiling, he stood, caressed me into his arms, then kissed me with all abandonment.
If anyone would like to join me and Mary in this fun 42 Flash Fiction Challenge, let me know.
MAY 11TH – 1,225 WORDS
Good ole Saturday. I love the weekends because it allows me to sleep in and it’s easier to catch up on responsibilities. I received the first set of chapters to beta-read. I love beta-reading (looking over a manuscript before the author submits to an editor, agent, or publisher). It’s pretty cool; it feels like I’m in on a secret. I love spoilers, so I enjoy knowing a story before the public gets to see it. And I like helping others out.
While looking over the author’s chapters, I was motivated to work on my own projects. I’m nervous, yet excited, to get my name out there. To find readers. To build relationships with other authors. It’s so close that I can taste it. Since I write in different genres, I need to consider that most readers won’t cross genres just to follow an author. That’s why I wanted to write suspense for NaNo. I’m going to publish One By One really soon; it’s a mystery thriller. I’m working on Something’s Amiss (women’s fiction). Next, I hope to release my NaNo story, then my other women’s fiction novel (from the 90 day challenge). If I keep rotating, then hopefully that’ll be okay.
I’m thinking like a businesswoman, and it feels good 🙂
I’m still on Chapter 4–Miki and Finia’s 1st therapy session. I have a feeling that this scene will be really long. It was fun to write all the tension and interactions with the therapist. She’s trying to calm Miki down because he keeps speaking out of turn, making Finia uncomfortable. It’s to the point he’s being so disrespectful that she’s heading out the front door. The therapist–don’t want to say the name in case I change it–rushes to bring her back.
I left off with an interesting section, so tomorrow I should stay motivated.
MAY 10TH – 1,193 WORDS
Today I was a busy bee. If I keep up the momentum of only focusing on Trapped: A Novella, then it’ll start to feel like a chore. Then I’ll lose interest. So I decided to work on other projects to keep my motivation going:
- posted book reviews
- offered to be a beta-reader for another author (Young Adult Suspense)
- formatted Something’s Amiss into a new document
- received a rejection for my short story December 4th, so found another market, formatting it to their guidelines before sending it off
- read another story for a book review
I managed to do all that once I got home. You would think that I would’ve been over trying to write for NaNo, but it was the total opposite. I got straight to work around 11. I wanted to add another task to my list. More than likely, if I didn’t stay busy when I first stepped into my room, then I would’ve stalled, watching TV instead.
The fun has begun for my NaNo novella. I fast forwarded to Miki and Finia’s first therapy session, skipping her giving birth. Now, Jahlin is 5 years old, a year away from starting kindergarten. With the short story, I enjoyed writing in both character’s perspectives. I started with Finia first, so readers could sympathize with Miki wanting his family back. I loved the twist at the end–he’s a narcissistic douche bag. So with the novella, I decided to keep both point-of-views, but instead of readers feeling sorry for Miki, I want them to have a strong reaction to him right away.
I already have the plot in my head, so it’s hard to keep motivated with typing everything. I wish someone was doing NaNo with me. But that’s how the cookie crumbles sometimes. I haven’t quit yet; that’s always a plus. Hopefully, I’ll catch up with word count soon because I want to go back to writing only 1,000 words a day.
MAY 9TH – 1,264 WORDS
In an attempt to catch up with my word count, my plan was to write more than 1,000 words a day. I’m happy that I was successful today. I reached the end of Chapter 3–the end of Miki and Finia’s life before Jahlin’s born. It was fun showing their relationship strained, but trying to make it work. Now, I can’t wait to start the aftermath of Jahlin’s presence.
My friend said that I create “Hosby Heroines.” I love the term; it refers to the fact that my female characters are usually pushing the guys away while he’s trying to pursue her. Finia is definitely a “Hosby Heroine,” but she has a valid reason. How would you feel if a guy you were dating trapped you for the next 18 years? I hope what Miki did is believable…when people read my short story, no one pointed out that the situation is far-fetched, so I’ll just roll with it.
After helping the college student, I came home and went straight to work. I typed until bedtime with no distractions. Even though I had printed off various thriller, mystery thriller, and suspense book blurbs earlier today, I focused on NaNo. I planned to study them later. Good news: someone offered to review One By One when it’s released. I’ll be happy when all versions of the book are published, so I can concentrate on promotion and marketing. Plus, it’ll free up my time to work on my other stories.
MAY 8TH – 688 WORDS
Besides my writer and publisher responsibilities, I’ve taken on the role of tutoring a college student. Am I crazy? Perhaps. Do I like punishing myself? Perhaps. My payment–free dinners. I have to eat, right? After work, I stayed in town for my second job. We didn’t get finished until around 8:30ish. By the time I ate, I was spent. Have you ever ate so much food that your stomach cramps and you just want to take a nap? Yeah, that’s how good I felt.
No sleeping though. I was determined to write something for NaNo. I didn’t care if it would only be 2 words, something was being typed on my computer. I focused on my story, reaching the end of Chapter 3. Once “Real World” came on, I was mesmerized by how Jordan and Nia are batshit crazy hee hee, so I had to pay attention. Sorry NaNo.
At 11, I took the opportunity to log into Absolute Write Forums to see if I got anymore suggestions and feedback. In the morning, I had posted my revised back cover blurb on there. These comments were more encouraging, letting me know I was on the right track. Editing my blurb took over my time until my head hit the pillow.
MAY 7TH – O WORDS
No excuses. Just my reasons why I couldn’t work on NaNo today:
- I posted book reviews on my blog, amazon, and goodreads. If I’m logged in, then I take the time to read other blogs and make comments. It’s the only time I get to do it. So I guess you could say, I chose social media over NaNo.
- If you’ve been following my blog, then you know I’m ready to publish One By One.
Every time I think I have something figured out, another obstacle takes over. I’m completely finished with editing and formatting. I thought it wouldn’t be hard to write a back cover blurb. Boy was I wrong! I’m happy I posted it on the Absolute Write Forums under Query Hell in Share Your Work. I’ve got great advice for improvements. I need a massive rewrite, so I better get to work. So I guess you could say, I chose my publisher responsibilities over NaNo.
No apologies. I have to get this stuff done. And, it doesn’t help that I’m losing motivation. Once I get home from work, I’m pretty tired. It’s a long day getting up at 5 AM and not reaching home until around 6:20 PM. I have to figure out a better system or something regarding writing time for Trapped: A Novella.
Good thing I decided to make this a novella at around 30,000 words. If I would have to write 1,666 words a day in order to reach 60,000 by the end of 30 days, then I would be bald-headed. The stress would’ve made my hair fall out. I wish my writing buddies were doing NaNo with me, but it wasn’t meant to be. Maybe that’s why I’ve lost motivation. There’s no one to really talk to. I mean sure they’d listen to me vent, but it’s not the same thing. After awhile, I’m sure they’d cut me off–I love to complain 🙂
Wish me luck. I have a feeling that I’ll need it.
MAY 6TH – 1,856 WORDS
I thought I knew how I wanted this story to go, but after watching “Straw Dogs,” I believe that I can make Miki darker and creepier. I’m very optimistic about the changes I’ll make. It’s pretty cool writing the villains–probably will be a running theme you guys will always see regarding posts on my writing. I can’t help it. I think it’s fun to get into Finia and Miki’s perspective on the situation they’re in. She’s lost and just wants to be left alone. He’s “in love,” a.k.a. obsessed, and doesn’t care how he gets her as long as he does.
So far, Jahlin hasn’t been born yet. I finished the scene where Finia and Miki are in the doctor’s office and find out she’s pregnant. I reached Chapter 3, which focuses on the aftermath of that visit. Miki learns that Finia won’t roll over and play nice like he had assumed. He’s dreading the challenge.
Since I actually accomplished writing today, I’m proud of myself. If I can keep this pace of writing more than a 1,000 words if I get behind, then I should stay on track. Keeping my fingers crossed as I daydream about my New York City trip coming up June 1st 🙂
MAY 5TH — 0 WORDS
The weekend was a bust on writing my novella. I had slept in past noon. Once I woke up, I decided it was time to look over my critique partner’s final two chapters of her novel. It wasn’t fair to keep her waiting. Then, I wanted to post my book reviews because it’s not fair to keep those authors waiting.
But, I had to go to the grocery store, which forced me to turn off my computer. It had been on for awhile, so I decided to keep it off once I got back. Hey, I helped save on the electricity bill 🙂 I think I may have used that lame excuse last year during NaNo hee hee.
Later on that night, all these cool suspense movies kept coming on HBO and Encore Suspense. I stayed in the living room to watch Mindhunters, Straw Dogs, Abraham Lincoln Vampire Slayer, etc. etc. I should’ve went to my room to work, but my lazy ass wouldn’t move from the couch. A weak excuse but there you go. It was like I knew that I had something important to do, so I was rebelling on purpose. Why? Because I could make it up later.
During Straw Dogs, the person I was watching TV with stated, “How can people come up with this crazy stuff to write? Who are these people?” Then he glanced over at me. “I know who writes crazy stuff like this.”
- It didn’t help that weeks ago, we watched a Wrong Turn marathon, and that I’m always picking out disturbing movies to watch. I can’t help what I like. But it got me thinking: what will my family and friends think of me if they read One By One? Or any of my dark stuff for that matter? Will they judge me? Or will they understand? I guess time will tell.
MAY 4TH — 0 WORDS
It’s only the 3rd day of NaNo, and I already have a zero. Yippie!
I had a hair appointment. On those days, I like to sit under the dryer with my kindle. Afterwards, I usually go straight home. Instead, I had to detour to Ranson. I was invited to a dinner party, and it would’ve been rude if I declined the offer.
I thought that once I reached home, I could start Trapped: A Novella. I’m used to writing late anyway, so no problems. Right? Wrong…that idea went down the drain when it was very late at night and we were still in Ranson. In the building, I moved to a corner in the back of the room to read my kindle. Rude? Maybe…but my day had to be productive somehow. What better way than to work on my book reviews.
Since there was no way of getting back home before the midnight deadline, I hung out at the Race Track, expecting to watch the Mayweather fight. Apparently, the place doesn’t show fights anymore because no one shows until the main event. It’s a waste of money to order those packages, including matches no one cares about. I had fun regardless. I watched people on the dance floor. It’s especially interesting to see the crowd of guys standing in circles with their cups of beer, just staring at the ladies dancing, probably wishing someone would dance with them. Hello, just ask. You never know.
Am I disappointed that I had a zero word count? No, because I know I’ll make it up eventually.
MAY 2ND — 828 WORDS
For May, I’m participating in NaNo. Instead of a 60,000 word novel, I’m writing a 30,000 novella in 30 days. That means only 1,000 words a day. I may be facing this challenge alone, so I hope I’m motivated to get past the 2nd week blues. We’ll see.
I’ve received a lot of feedback about how I should expand on my short story Trapped. Finia and Miki’s past will be explored as well as the aftermath of their therapy sessions. Since I had so much fun writing a thriller, I’m making this story a thriller or suspense. It’ll depend on how dark and twisted I want to make it. Right now, I can see Miki doing despicable acts if he doesn’t get his way. Poor Finia. Poor Jahlin.
I participated in NaNo last year (in April), so I know what to expect. That’s why I was cool as a cucumber today. Zero word counts will be okay. Lower word counts will be okay. So no rush. That’s why I enjoyed my zumba class at Gold’s Gym and watched TV before starting. Oh my goodness, I was worn-out. My eyes kept drifting close and I had a headache. I was tempted to just have my 1st day be a zero word count, but my motivation caused me to turn on my computer.
- I’m trying something different. Instead of writing in a notebook first, I’ll be typing on the computer once I get home from work. And I won’t print off the pages as I go; I’ll just wait until the end. I’m a busy bee–probably stupid of me to begin a stressful, but fun, challenge at this time–so I better do my other obligations in the mornings.
- Book reviews, critiquing other writers’ work, blogging, social media, editing my other stories, formatting my debut book, beta-reading for other writers, etc. etc. etc. etc. take up the majority of my time. Which I’m not complaining. The day in the life of a writer 🙂 On Tuesday, I successfully formatted One By One into a PDF file and emailed it to my kindle. It took me all night to read it over. I was excited to see it as a real ebook! To see it with pages instead of as a continuous screen on a computer! Formatting was perfect–my author photo even transferred to my kindle. Yea!!! Hopefully, it’ll be easy to download to Createspace and Amazon. Keeping my fingers crossed. Anyway, I noticed only a few typos that I need to fix in my Word document, then I can upload.
I started my NaNo story at 9 PM; I reached Chapter 2. Finia just found out that she may be pregnant. She’s flabbergasted. If only she knew what else is in store for her…I focused a lot on her surroundings, practicing to be better with describing setting elements. I have a bad habit of waiting until the last minute to describe characters’ physical details. I enjoyed what I wrote, not even taking any breaks. I reached Chapter 2 where Finia and Miki are waiting at the doctor’s office. Miki, that manipulative bastard. He’ll be fun to write for. No comment of if he’s based off a guy I used to know. I don’t want to get sued 🙂
Since I was really tired, I ended up stopping early to go to bed. Once my head hit the pillow, I was knocked out. I couldn’t even finish watching the end of Braxton Family Values. Oh well, good thing reruns are always on.