APR. 19TH – 1,074 WORDS
All day I’ve had a headache! ALL DAY! But guess what–I had to write. Can’t have another zero word count. It’s so fitting that the short story I wrote for the writing contest is about a woman who feels trapped after her boyfriend tricked her into getting pregnant (long story). Anyway, I feel trapped, very trapped. Being stressful, writing everyday isn’t fun anymore. I don’t feel like doing it but HAVE to. But WHY do I have to?
What’s the point? It’s all crap anyway. I’m a fraud, a con artist. I hate this whole plan I came up with of do-a-fun-challenge-of-writing-a-novel-in-30-days. What was I thinking?! I feel so bad that I brought Melissa and Robin into this mess LOL. I’m in such a bad mood.
It didn’t help that there was a Writer’s Group meeting tonight, so that delayed me even further to start writing for NaNo. I shouldn’t feel annoyed about something I’ve been searching forever to find (local writers in my area), but there I was thinking ‘is it over yet’. Wasn’t their fault–it was mine for doing NaNo in the first place.
It’s ridiculous that I don’t have time for anything else. Just plain stupid. And, I didn’t even reach my goal today so I’m behind again. I’m going to pull my hair out! My headache was getting worse and worse throughout the day; by 10:30, I said forget everything I’m taking my butt to bed.
Tomorrow I’ll see Robin and Melissa. Hopefully, they can get me out of my 2nd week NaNo blues…